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'Saan ba ako nagkulang?': Moira admits questioning self over split with Jason Marvin

Moira recalls dealing with the pain from their breakup among other things: "Nag-shutdown ako"

Patricia Matalog
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Patricia Matalog

6/6/2022 in News
'Saan ba ako nagkulang?': Moira admits questioning self over split with Jason Marvin

In her first interview since confirming her split with husband Jason Marvin Hernandez, Moira Dela Torre opened up about the pain she went through and how she coped with the heartbreak.

Speaking to the Momshies of "Magandang Buhay" earlier today, June 6, the "Paubaya" hitmaker talked about the state of her heart, admitting that she's still "grieving" over their breakup.

"Siguro po ngayon I am in a season na hindi ko nakita. Hindi siya kumbaga —mahilig kasi ako mag-bullet journal, binigyan ako ni Mama Reg (Regine Velasquez) — so mahilig akong magplano. Kumbaga wala ito sa plano," Moira said.

"Pero ang galing kasi dito ko po natutunan na mabait talaga si Lord. Kasi dito ko nakikita na pwede palang magsabay 'yung grieving pati 'yung healing, na parte pala ng grieving 'yung healing. Na pwede pa rin pala akong maka-experience ng joy sa umaga kahit umiiyak ako sa gabi," she added.

Moira also said the pain she experienced brought a "foreign feeling" to her.

"Akala ko kasi dati kapag dumarating 'yung moments na ganito ay iisang feeling lang all throughout. It's a foreign feeling to me and I didn't expect it to be like this," she said.

Thanks to her friends and people she's working with on "Idol Philippines," Moira was able to power through every day, especially since her heartbreak wasn't the only thing she was grieving over.

"Actually noong first taping day namin ng 'Idol,' a day before or the day I found out about what had happened, namatay po 'yung best friend ko, tapos nalaman ko na may cancer ang driver ko, tapos namatay 'yung tito ko. All in two days and I didn't know how I was going to process. Hindi ko alam kung paano magpa-function. As in nag-shutdown ako," she recalled.

"Feeling ko po kung hindi 'Idol' season o kung hindi ako binigyan ng Lord ng mga kaibigan o barkada ko ngayon, I don't think I would be strong as I would have been," she confessed. "Sobrang perfect timing po nang pagdating ng mga tao sa buhay ko." 

Asked if she happened to blame herself for what happened, Moira answered: "Yes, Mama (Regine), sobra," before she broke into tears.

"I guess sa lahat ng pinagdadaanan ko sa buhay, palaging 'yun ang initial reaction ko. I always say what did I do wrong? So especially now, saan ba ako nagkulang?" she said.

"Dati akala ko ang 'Paubaya', kanta ko lang. Pero tinatanong naman natin talaga lahat 'yon sa sarili natin kung saan tayo nagkamali, saan tayo nagkulang? Hindi lang sa relationship, sa career or sa kung anuman," she related.

While she may feel like a "broken glass" now, Moira believes there will come a time that God will make her "whole again."

"I also know that God makes all things beautiful in His time. At 'yun talaga ang pinanghahawakan ko na I may feel like a broken glass right now, but God can make me a diamond again. And I know I will be whole again. I know he will be whole again," she stressed. "Mag-fail man lahat sa buhay ko, I know God never will. Alam ko sa puso ko na true love exists. And in my life, it may not be in human form, but it exists in my life because God is with me. And because He is with me I can forgive dahil may Diyos ako sa buhay ko malaya ako," she said.

Moira and Jason announced in a joint statement last May 31 that they have decided to end their three years of marriage.

In the post, Jason confessed to being "unfaithful" to Moira, saying that his infidelity led to the breakup.

The singer-songwriter then released her own statement in a separate post three days later, stressing that she never cheated on her husband amid the rumors circulating on social media.

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