Regine Velasquez admits that she still feels guilty over how her relationship with Ogie Alcasid started.
On the March 21 episode of "Magandang Buhay," the Asia's Songbird went candid about her own experience after she found herself in the similar situation of the letter sender on being the "other woman" in a relationship back then.
"My husband and I started that way. Pero 'yun kasi we were good friends. Hindi ko naman talaga sinasadya. Kasi puwede talagang mangyari," Regine recalled, referring to Ogie’s previous marriage to Michelle van Eimeren.
"Kagaya nga nang sinabi, hindi mo pinipili ang mamahalin mo. Parang gusto ko bang sadyain 'yon, gusto ko ba na mayroong masaktan? May mga matitinong tao na hindi naman 'yon ang iniisip nila. It's just that sometimes, it happens. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyayari sa kanila at that time, I don't know kasi hindi ako kasali doon, but it happened," she related.
Still bearing the guilt from what happened, the "Magandang Buhay" host said she would turn back time if she would just so they wouldn't have to hurt other people's feelings.
"I just have to say it was difficult. And if I could bring back the time — I love my husband — but if I could bring back the time, siguro mas gugustuhin ko na wala kaming nasaktan, na walang dalawang bata na nag-suffer because we wanted to be together," she said, referring to the former couple's daughters, Sarah and Leila.
"For a while, I have to say I had to live with that guilt. I was living with that guilt and my husband would say, 'It was not about you, it was about me and Michelle.' But even then, I was there, I was part of it. I was the third party," she pressed. "And for a time na-forgive na ako ni Michelle, na-forgive na ako ng mga tao, except I wasn't forgiving myself. I'm still working on it."
Regine then went emotional recounting the struggle of living with the guilt. "Every now and then, I would remember what happened to us and I'd still be guilty. Mahirap din to be in that situation, na hindi mo sinasadya na magmahal ng tao. And I am a decent person and I do not want to hurt anyone and that's the last thing I would want in my life, but it happens," she said.
Now that she has forgiven herself, the singer said she has learned to accept that she is now the wife and family of Ogie and not an "outsider."
"I am okay. Don't get me wrong, naaalala ko lang. I think na I've already forgiven myself, 'yung hindi na ako masyadong nagi-guilty. Pero once in a while, I will remember or kapag may nangyayari doon sa dalawang girls, 'yung ganoon. Pero ang iniisip ko na lang hindi na ganun 'yung sitwasyon, ako na ang asawa niya. I am not outside anymore, I'm his family now," she stressed. "So tina-try ko tanggalin ang sarili ko roon, but again it's very difficult because the kind of person I am, I remember things. Very sensitive ako, na ako na lang ang [masaktan] kaysa masaktan kita."
Regine and Ogie have been married for 11 years. They have a son named Nate.
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